Category: Wolf on WallStreet

this is one of the last four blogs I will ever write. although I am sad to finish a tradition I began close to three years ago, this has become daunting and far from transparent. I used to be very clear and could name names, dates and locations. I used to attach photographs to my blog. it was fun. I am unable to share so much at this time in my life without risking others. if I cant go completely, I would rather abstain. I am a fan of wholeheartedness. I am a fan of oneness. I am also a fan of protecting what I love. he protects me and I protect him- that is LOVE.

blogging began for me as a means to promote people and things I believed in, paid me. it turned out to be a diary of my life. my life pays me more than promoting anything or anyone.  I am in love with the evolution of it. I will look at it and cherish the memories. I will explain it to my love and my son as it happened, moment by moment. its all there in black and white. I love the written word. it’s a contract in deed. it cant be lied about or altered. the spoken word is more often manipulated. my social media presence is strong. I will use it and my podcast for the purposes of promotion.

art basel was everything I thought it would be and more. roman had a blast and met some people he wanted to meet. I danced so much my body aches. salt and pepper beards are the salt of the earth. moscow mules have been my thing since the beginning of 2016.

the house looks like santa likes it. I am happy. this is for certain my last year breaking it down for his arrival. I am very much looking forward to relocating.  this house served its purpose and I am grateful. family was my goal and I achieved it. looking back at my life, I can be proud of sacrificing myself for roman.

I spoke to various college counselors this week and I am in a bit of shock. my bestfriend, my biggest protector and my greatest love is on his way to success. I am elated.

fitness will take on a different role for me in 2017. coaching has increased and personally I am at peace. planning for the new year is front and center. adulting is the new black.

when a man loves a woman, he would do anything for her. I am there. it is bliss. it only took me twenty five years to learn that. 

steroids and medicine that alter the body for muscle gain appearance should be banned. I see so many bodies ruined by this. the bulk look is so yuck.  roiderama is evident in the face immediately. it really is so unattractive to me. I love a strong upper body when it is natural. I love a thick torso. I love scars. I love them now more than ever before. perfect is boring. perfect is a lie.

love in real life is my new jam. I love when he kisses you, holds your hand. I love when he calls you, shows you off. I love faithful and proud. I’m in love.

I am working on two public events for the first quarter of 2017. they are both very different than what I have ever done. I am very excited about both projects.

solid gold is the new years theme. I am looking forward to a year of feeling like gold, being treated like gold and making gold. sometimes the silver is the gold.

hashtag abuse is ugly #hashtagless

and if you don’t know, really deep,

 

magda

 

daft punk came out with a new song. I smiled. we love music together. it’s magic. magic is something you make. it’s like love.

I was scared indeed. I’m not anymore. love set me free. love is everywhere. you are spot on!!!  I felt it coming. I couldn’t control it. beauty caught my eye but man the personality stole my heart. energy doesn’t lie. for close to a year, I have been denying love. how stupid am I? experience is the best teacher. WE SHINE WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER. it’s more shine. it’s blinding.

I protect my son from all things negative. I am fierce on this topic. I plan on doing the same with my love. you can see it in me. we were walking side by side, he is gorgeous. he is a man. he was proud. I was too. I felt it coming. people kept asking me, inquiring. I didn’t understand why? I know now, you can see it, in us both. I believe it is in the trust, the sexy binding trust. jeezus is all I could say. jeezus. baby jeezus. I hear the murmur. it’s cute.

he loves will ferrell too. I am very happy to feel like this again. I literally cant stop smiling. I felt it coming.

I feel happy. I am enthused. I am inspired. I felt it coming.

my life is about to do a 360! I am bouncing off of walls happy. I’m coaching more than ever before. I am living life to the fullest more than ever before. my son is healthy and happy. I have SO much to give thanks for. I feel gratitude in boat loads. HAAA! I felt it coming.

IN 41 DAYS THIS YEAR WILL BE HISTORY, I will never forget this year. I found trouble!!!!! what a year! it’s an OH MY GOD!

and if you don’t know, we slay,

 

magda

I love frank. I love elvis. I love when a man loves me. it’s that feeling of being protected, paid for, attended to that floats my boat. when a man says I love you, I worry about you, I am here for you and then shows it!!! wow, that shit moves mountains for me. I really am so flattered in my life right now. I am the oldest I’ll ever be and feel like I am learning how to walk. I am always getting complimented, shown love. it is amazing.

how do I navigate through all of the newness? what do I agree to? I am being very methodical in my choices now. I am lending my energy to the few people that I trust and am working tirelessly. I have moments where I look at the gifts, the flirtation, the propositions and I smile. I am 45!! it’s crazy. it took me a long time to realize that when you are loved, you don’t ever feel sad. I feel like I can climb mountains now.

roman is going to college soon and I am spending more and more time with him. I love to see how grateful, humble and happy he is. I did well. gratitude is one of the sexiest traits any human can own. I imagine how terrible it is to be the parent of an ungrateful soul. or even worse, being ungrateful. yuck!! gratitude is the only attitude for this life.

I had a great weekend. party after party on top of party was my flow. I managed to coach ten clients in between. multitasker!

this year I had so many firsts! I made great memories. I am surrounded by love. I am blessed. I wonder what it’s like to feel differently. I hear my clients describe their lives and my heart aches.

choices is the answer, we make them all day, every day. you are what you choose. you are in love with the people you choose. there is no other definition. choose wisely.

it’s monday and I am late on my blog because I was dancing, watching movies, being great and LOVING all of the people around me. Happy Week lovers!

and if you don’t know, I am a thoroughbred,

 

magda

I wrote a blog this morning and then erased it. I’m glad I did. I thought about it again while I was with the children and my helper Jen. Jen restored me today. Her presence in my day as a helper glued me back together again. She was honest. She loves yoga. She loves community. This was refreshing.

I spent my day sharing myself with hundreds of children. It makes me so happy to speak with young adults. I wish I could have had more of my own. I am grateful for Roman. He is a real man. It was of urgency to me to know that he is better than commonalities. He is rare.

I went to a wake for a nineteen year old child this weekend together with my son. I realized how important falling apart is. I have been friends with them for close to two decades. I don’t do transition friends. I don’t do flavors. if I call you friend, it is as important as my marriage. I have few. I went to show them strength, instead I cried in her arms. She felt my love.

Suicide is real, it is tragic. I know of four in my life and wonder what it feels like to want to die. I am so happy I have people that love me, miss me, want to be with me. I would never let them down. I love life. I really love my life.

Excuse the brevity of this blog, I have to catch up on sleep. I’m a safe catch.

and if you don’t know, it feels good to be loved,

 

magda

I can fight with the IRS, with weight loss, with an insect that sneaks into my home but I am unable to fight with things out of my control. in my eulogy at fit, flawed and sexy my third thing was to be remembered as a fighter. but, I don’t fight for just anything. I fight for what matters, what is worthy. I quickly release what is harmful, damaging and unhealthy. I live clean. eating burger king or surrounding myself with that type of low level stuff isn’t my bag. I will go to battle for what is meaningful.

I thought november would be more calm, quite the contrary. I have four new philanthropic engagements. I’m putting my foot down for december tho. I am having a blast enjoying the people in my life. I am protected. I love that.

for christmas, I want more of what is making me happy daily- PROTECTION.

I have so much to be thankful for in this 2016. I look forward to next year and the duplication of abundance. I am blessed and very grateful for what I TRULY HAVE.

I wish you a safe holiday and the love of the people YOU choose to be with.

and if you don’t know, loyalty and protection makes me happy,

 

magda