when you imagine something to be true, it’s true. enlightenment is the destroyer of it- of truth. what a week! I haven’t slept, all I am able to do is sweat and work and watch my son evolve into a good man. he is so happy. it makes me happy to see him happy.
every time I lift anything made of iron, or this tiny little body- I wanna hurt shit. I wanna break stuff. I lock, flex, let go. I fuck hard!!! Its my coach, my therapy. I forget I have an audience. I like that.
this week has been brutal and magical. I will be in Chicago again next week. Chicago is beautiful. I’ve been there at least three times and find greatness always. I just wish it wasn’t so dark in the mornings. I am mos def a loyal morning girl- THE ORIGINAL EARLY BIRD. Haaaaaaa! STILL CAN’T FIGURE all OF THE FINE BEAUTIES IN THE CLUB THO? HONESTLY, WHO CARES! The point is, life isnt’t that. life is what you make it. my life is very honest, chasing or being chased thru the DM, snap or instasnap is far from what I want near or around me. every time I get a DM I want to vomit. In this case, I think like “TALES FROM THE CRYPT” that type of communication is inevitably doomed from the start.
I went out this weekend to celebrate the first day of fall. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I had to stop and breathe. I shared it. WOW! I LOVE firsts. It was the first sunrise and farewell to the moon I had ever witnessed simultaneously. it was so close to me, I could feel the burn. I am Larry David in part. I am partly Jewish too.
I am disgusted with what is developing in front of my face daily. I had a long talk with a friend of mine about all of the media becoming a match.com. I see thru the façade of pretense, there is just no other word- disgusting.
Its when you start believing the mind fuck that you are fucked. The people that love you are with you for free. the people that love you are with you. They are not at the end of a machine. Love is the not the sum of a key pad being manipulated.
Yoga and more yoga, bells and clubs, ropes and money- never fail to engage me. it is very black and white. You get what you give.
Holidays are coming! I love the holidays. The action of being with the folk that love you. So amazing.
and if you don’t know, perfect, bright white smiles is my thing,