hanging up on 45


this is the last blog before my 46th birthday. I am so damn blessed I can’t even compile it all in words, podcasts or any other type of format. I’ve tried. every time I want to say thank you world, I am grateful- I forget about something or someone. I pray. of course, I pray. in many religions, in many languages and often too. I just have so much to be grateful for tho. my mind isn’t vast enough, my list is never long enough. or maybe I just continue to find reasons to say thank you. I’m a consistent mf so it is more probable a mixture of both.

roman received his PGA credz and I received Press credz on the same day. we are both succeeding in our journeys. the reality of my solitude is becoming more and more abrupt. he will only be with me a few days next month and then his final year begins. in my alone time, I am working more than ever and working out is more intense. I fuckn love to sweat. I’m obsessed with it. my closet is huge, like a SAKS FIFTH AVENUE- but its beginning to feel like a luxury fitness gear store. in my next home, I am making a custom workout closet. I can see it, I can taste it. I’m most excited for the next phase in my life.

I’ve done three podcasts in four days, the same four days of MIAMI SWIM WEEK. it is safe to assume I haven’t slept much. I met CASH CASH.

the new moon is in LEO. it is my birthday soon, the universe is conspiring in the form of LIONS that shine. ima believer. I always have been. I do good, so I get good. my chart says I’m gonna shine. it also says I’m gonna get married again.

FLY ME TO THE MOON PART 2 speaks of my love life. I cant wait to share with you. it’ll be up this week. the reader was hitting very close to home in her descriptions of my persona and my life. I almost fell out of my chair when she said the phrase “ALL or NOTHING” kinda girl. she was right.

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I love that you read my blogs I really do, but selfishly they are more for me. my collection of thoughts, nuances, memories.

I just don’t want you to miss a thing. you gotta be in it to win it.

thank you for the loyalty throughout my 45th year of life, I can only hope to equal in the next year, the magic that I experienced in the present one.

and if you don’t know, it’s my birthday,