Category: No Pain / No Gain

I love frank. I love elvis. I love when a man loves me. it’s that feeling of being protected, paid for, attended to that floats my boat. when a man says I love you, I worry about you, I am here for you and then shows it!!! wow, that shit moves mountains for me. I really am so flattered in my life right now. I am the oldest I’ll ever be and feel like I am learning how to walk. I am always getting complimented, shown love. it is amazing.

how do I navigate through all of the newness? what do I agree to? I am being very methodical in my choices now. I am lending my energy to the few people that I trust and am working tirelessly. I have moments where I look at the gifts, the flirtation, the propositions and I smile. I am 45!! it’s crazy. it took me a long time to realize that when you are loved, you don’t ever feel sad. I feel like I can climb mountains now.

roman is going to college soon and I am spending more and more time with him. I love to see how grateful, humble and happy he is. I did well. gratitude is one of the sexiest traits any human can own. I imagine how terrible it is to be the parent of an ungrateful soul. or even worse, being ungrateful. yuck!! gratitude is the only attitude for this life.

I had a great weekend. party after party on top of party was my flow. I managed to coach ten clients in between. multitasker!

this year I had so many firsts! I made great memories. I am surrounded by love. I am blessed. I wonder what it’s like to feel differently. I hear my clients describe their lives and my heart aches.

choices is the answer, we make them all day, every day. you are what you choose. you are in love with the people you choose. there is no other definition. choose wisely.

it’s monday and I am late on my blog because I was dancing, watching movies, being great and LOVING all of the people around me. Happy Week lovers!

and if you don’t know, I am a thoroughbred,

 

magda

I wrote a blog this morning and then erased it. I’m glad I did. I thought about it again while I was with the children and my helper Jen. Jen restored me today. Her presence in my day as a helper glued me back together again. She was honest. She loves yoga. She loves community. This was refreshing.

I spent my day sharing myself with hundreds of children. It makes me so happy to speak with young adults. I wish I could have had more of my own. I am grateful for Roman. He is a real man. It was of urgency to me to know that he is better than commonalities. He is rare.

I went to a wake for a nineteen year old child this weekend together with my son. I realized how important falling apart is. I have been friends with them for close to two decades. I don’t do transition friends. I don’t do flavors. if I call you friend, it is as important as my marriage. I have few. I went to show them strength, instead I cried in her arms. She felt my love.

Suicide is real, it is tragic. I know of four in my life and wonder what it feels like to want to die. I am so happy I have people that love me, miss me, want to be with me. I would never let them down. I love life. I really love my life.

Excuse the brevity of this blog, I have to catch up on sleep. I’m a safe catch.

and if you don’t know, it feels good to be loved,

 

magda

I can fight with the IRS, with weight loss, with an insect that sneaks into my home but I am unable to fight with things out of my control. in my eulogy at fit, flawed and sexy my third thing was to be remembered as a fighter. but, I don’t fight for just anything. I fight for what matters, what is worthy. I quickly release what is harmful, damaging and unhealthy. I live clean. eating burger king or surrounding myself with that type of low level stuff isn’t my bag. I will go to battle for what is meaningful.

I thought november would be more calm, quite the contrary. I have four new philanthropic engagements. I’m putting my foot down for december tho. I am having a blast enjoying the people in my life. I am protected. I love that.

for christmas, I want more of what is making me happy daily- PROTECTION.

I have so much to be thankful for in this 2016. I look forward to next year and the duplication of abundance. I am blessed and very grateful for what I TRULY HAVE.

I wish you a safe holiday and the love of the people YOU choose to be with.

and if you don’t know, loyalty and protection makes me happy,

 

magda

two decades ago I got married. I am lucky. I know what that feels like. I am grateful. the sanctity of marriage is beautiful. not so long ago, a new interest in my life and I discussed sanctifying yourself. I learned something. I am fortunate.

this month has been outrageous. I am having a blast. I’m not kidding! this being single thing is fucking amazing. everywhere I turn is greatness, kindness, romance and I don’t pay for anything. I don’t worry about anything anymore. its freedom.

I only do what makes me happy and I’m only with people that want the same thing for me. I am more careful daily with who I lend my energy to. its precious. he calls me a masterpiece.

what a beautiful week! so much realness in our community showed up. the real players were present. it was uplifting. there was mind, body and soul toys and schools for all of us. I forgot just how many people I really know. I thank God everyday for my life and the few peeps in it.

I had a friend come in from Toronto this week. my friends are ballers. the cream of the crop is the goal in all things. I don’t like common shit. I’d rather starve.

I’m really excited for wednesday and apparently a lot of others are too. how cool is it, that I can better people, help people, lift others just by being. on my knees grateful for that awesome plateful.

a man walked up to me at my new office in Paradigm kitchen and asked me about my blog. I am amazed that people care. this blog began as a love story and now it’s a real love story. thank you for your loyalty.

if you haven’t bought your ticket, you’ll be sorry.

wishing you the baddest always, together with the ones you love and the ones that love you!

and if you don’t know, I am very much in love,

 

magda