I bring the fire


so the orchid given to me this week had a bud that was half torn from it’s root but still very beautiful and stood alone from the group. I love the ones that stand alone, in every way. I really get turned off by commonalities. It takes a very secure human to be honest. It takes a completely wilted orchid bud to die. Which of the two come first for me?

my month came with extraordinary highs and very low lows. I realized there is no hope and realized there is all of the hope in the world. I faced immeasurable fears. I knew the outcome, long before I looked. It’s kind of like yoga, the push pull struggle to hold the poses. yoga isn’t for softies, it’s actually a strength builder in every way.

my yoga teacher training was a blessing. it couldn’t have happened at a better time in my life. It truly gave me the strength to see what I just couldn’t face. It built me, it gave me a well to nourish me. I was feeling drained in every way. I became open to love again in and through yoga. I am forever grateful. I will hold that baby with loving care for the rest of my life, I will protect it with all of my self- kinda like Roman. I’m a parent, I know what real love is. I also know, you can’t find it on social media. My heart bleeds for those who believe they can.

Oh yes!!! If I don’t know you personally, no worries, I don’t take it personal. 

I’m doing a big and wonderful yoga class on February 28 for more information, please go to www.active.com and find the bows & bow ties event and sign up. I seriously wanna meet you. yes, lots of celebrity and fun but more than that we can change the world that day. Hope to see you flowing, running and smiling.

I agreed to ambassadorship for the be excellent brand so happily last week. Being excellent, good, happy, fit and compassionate takes enormous effort. It’s a daily choice. I believe wholeheartedly in karma. I believe in being held to a higher standard. the yama and niyama are my creed. You can’t call yourself a yogi and be cruel. You can’t call yourself an ambassador of anything and be dishonest. The philosophy of excellence is one I live by, I plan on making it an epidemic. Simple as that.

Coldplay made my weekend colorful. We had fun! I’m so alive again. I’m not looking back. A head full of dreams and a heart full of love is too great to waste on lies.

February looks like a magical month, a Valentine’s Day of being worshipped is something I am truly missing. I am overwhelmed with excitement.

As my journey of two hundred hours comes to an end, I feel like the journey of life is just beginning.

the constants, my son, my energy and the belief in that half broken bud being equally beautiful as it’s sisters and brothers. I love imperfections, scars. I am grateful.

and if you don’t know, drink from me,



Om Namah Shivaya

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it’s so cool not having the stress of running a marathon. my tribe ran in the miami marathon this weekend and I had the luck of loving and not having all that drama. I have mad respect for runners but it’s not for me.  the electricity in the crowds, the parties, the roars is really awesome tho. I had a magical weekend, surrounded by positive, healthy folk. I love that shit. I ate like a champ. clean eating feels good. i resisted temptation and it wasn’t easy. loving your body isn’t always easy, I’m worth it. the bread doesn’t taste as good as looking good feels. verda nutrition baby!!!

I graduate soon as a yoga teacher, I am so excited. it truly has made me a better person. I faced so may demons in the process of becoming certified, so many ugly truths. I looked at them with compassion. of course, I have made money with it already. money is something that is easy for me to make. I think it’s karma really. if you hoard, live in fear, live only to produce paper it becomes the very thing that leaves you. I guess colors were made for people to choose their own. it’s all about choice.

this week I have a very exciting public event, actually various events. what to wear??? lucky to have stores that throw it at me. truly grateful to them.

I sat under the biggest moon I had ever seen last night. I almost cried. it was humbling. so many memories in the making, I am so lucky to have the ability to make them. gratitude makes it all doable for me.

january was a success in every way for me. I found the hope I needed, the professional growth I deserved and the courage to start again. february is booked in greatness too.


and if you don’t know, I love my life,



st lucia


do you ever really know someone? You think you do and then shocker, he’s a stranger. And then in the same flash of life, newness appears. A new sensation, a new interest. I have been smiling non stop. You know when people say, it is what it is, I hate that. So much finality in that statement. I am more of a fan of anything is possible.

The year 2016 has proven this to me. Wow! The professional opportunities have been humbling. My dreams have come true. I worked hard for them but I still feel like I am the luckiest lady ever. I hope it shows. Humility is so sexy. So is love. Love without money in the middle. No transactions.

I’ll be flying around the world very soon. I’ll be Coaching everywhere. How fortunate is a woman that can start all over again and be successful in such a short time? Me!!!

I graduate in two more classes as a Yoga teacher. This also has been an incredible journey. I started for the sole purpose of self realization. I got so much more out of it. I always do. I won truth. I saw through illusion. I let go.

I’ll be at the Miami Marathon next weekend. This time I’m actually going to enjoy it.

No stress, no drama.

Valentine’s Day is also exciting me. Like really exciting.

Roman always tells me life is good and people are kind, he’s right.

I choose to remember beautiful things, I choose to be happy. Verda emailed me yesterday and asked me to pose for more pictures in color as opposed to black and white. I laughed out loud. Verda is the only choice for protein.

I have been living in the dark. I see the colors now. This life is so cool.

and if you don’t know, money after divorce is earned not given,



I was crushed this morning when I learned of David Bowie passing. What a waste! My heart broke. Whenever someone dies, someone I identified with, someone I loved, knew, I can’t help but get inspired to live. I always think of what I have left to do. The list of open items, stones left unturned. I think of the apologies I owe, the love I have to give and the loose ends I have to tie.

Time to make a Change. –david bowie remastered 1999/2000

I returned an executed contract that I have been building for for three years this morning. I am elated. I am truly proud of myself. I am so excited about the growth in my career as a life coach.

I went to the seventh opening for Jugo Fresh this morning. My friend Matt is a very special human. I get happy when I see others succeed.

This weekend I was able to help my community in the most unique way. It’s safe to say that happiness was fueled.

I met a lot of people this weekend. Growth is life. Whether you’re ready or not growth is necessary.

The first weeks of January happened exactly how I thought they would- magic.

Let’s go HEAT!!!

and if you don’t know, it’s only the beginning,


a brave new world

I woke up on the day of new year’s eve and walked (not a runner) the streets of mexico alone. I thought of the year that was closing and the year that was about to begin. I stopped in a local tourist hot spot and wrote my timeline for another public life coaching event coming up. I ate a lot. I love to eat. I have eaten so much in the past month it is baffling to me how I lost weight. I ate to make myself feel less pain. I went to a church. “ take me to church “ is one of my favorite songs from last year. I can barely listen to music. I go to the movies alone. I can’t seem to go with anyone else.  you.  in the beautiful church made of glass, I prayed. I prayed in every language I know. I asked for faith and for forgiveness. I thanked god for his kindness. I walked again.

it’s been a very trying year. its been a glorious year for my son and for me professionally, physically too. although, the stress is showing. I am thin. I am never thin. I am really excited to be cared for, to be fed and loved.

verda has been a constant and so has the gym and yoga. for these things I am grateful and loyal.

I am really afraid and very excited for my personal future. I feel vulnerable and alive. it is scary.

I am going to podcast more this year. I am always afraid of showing pain or sadness. I place an enormous pressure on myself to keep a stiff upper lip always. it’s time to let go. I am human and have been hurting. podcasting records my volume, my ptich- I don’t hide well. I’d rather show imperfection than pretend happy. for these reasons I stayed off the mic. my blogs have suffered too. I am sorry.

I look forward to life, travel and clarity. no clutter or confusion. I have always been very clear on what I want. I plan on shining very bright.  please get courtside seats to watch the magda lopez show explode to the highest heights.

my black beads are beautiful, please bring them soon.

and if you don’t know, it’s a new year,