catch that

life is a gift. everyday I see these words. this weekend, I looked at them again and worked out endlessly. I suppose I was doing it because I can. I went to matt right after and was wet. I was soaked. I kept working out to see if it went away. I saw a dead human laying alone on the street. I had never imagined that. I was lucky because I was able to lean on someone. he held me up. how sad to be so unloved that you could die and know one knows. I was filled with apathy. breath is the only thing that kept me moving.  I felt like being healthy would help me. life indeed is precious.

for the past year, I have been really focused on those people around me that love me- I watched closely who came and who left. I have suffocated the ones that stayed with my love and loyalty. people who don’t appreciate you, don’t deserve your breath. the dead man reminded me of this.

the catcher for the marlins, my friend and proud gulliver golfer was killed. he was fishing. he would annually bring monies to the school and a huge smile to my hole. I don’t know what it will feel like without him this year. he went out for tarpon and lobster. I have an enormous respect for those that fish.

paradigm kitchen and tropical vinyasa opened this week in miami beach.  you can find me in both frequently. hell, I might even move there. my rituals seldom change. I have sticktoitiveness on my side. I workout and I eat in the same joints always. my habits are consistent. I believe in this greatly. it’s prolly the secret to my success.  I leave the reinventing to madonna. I like my life as it is and the people in it.  morevover, I like myself.

october is here and I cant believe it. a year has passed.  I travelled, I loved and I lived.

fit, flawed and sexy is coming up and I am really excited. I feel so much support from those that love me. he told me he was proud of me, I almost died. he said the magic words, over and over again. a man that protects what he loves, is a mutha fucka.

the event is looking more and more like a party. I love parties. friends and fam come together to shake miami.

football has taken over miami! I love football and CHEESE!! and maybe a Corona.

have a great rest of september, together with the people you love and the folk that love you back. its important to have all that. RIP JOSE FERNANDEZ.    


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and if you don’t know, he couldn’t catch that,





when you imagine something to be true, it’s true. enlightenment is the destroyer of it- of truth. what a week! I haven’t slept, all I am able to do is sweat and work and watch my son evolve into a good man. he is so happy. it makes me happy to see him happy.

every time I lift anything made of iron, or this tiny little body- I wanna hurt shit. I wanna break stuff. I lock, flex, let go. I fuck hard!!! Its my coach, my therapy. I forget I have an audience. I like that.

this week has been brutal and magical. I will be in Chicago again next week. Chicago is beautiful. I’ve been there at least three times and find greatness always. I just wish it wasn’t so dark in the mornings. I am mos def a loyal morning girl- THE ORIGINAL EARLY BIRD. Haaaaaaa! STILL CAN’T FIGURE all OF THE FINE BEAUTIES IN THE CLUB THO? HONESTLY, WHO CARES! The point is, life isnt’t that. life is what you make it. my life is very honest, chasing or being chased thru the DM, snap or instasnap is far from what I want near or around me. every time I get a DM I want to vomit. In this case, I think like “TALES FROM THE CRYPT” that type of communication is inevitably doomed from the start.

I went out this weekend to celebrate the first day of fall. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I had to stop and breathe. I shared it. WOW! I LOVE firsts. It was the first sunrise and farewell to the moon I had ever witnessed simultaneously. it was so close to me, I could feel the burn. I am Larry David in part. I am partly Jewish too.

I am disgusted with what is developing in front of my face daily. I had a long talk with a friend of mine about all of the media becoming a I see thru the façade of pretense, there is just no other word- disgusting.

Its when you start believing the mind fuck that you are fucked. The people that love you are with you for free. the people that love you are with you. They are not at the end of a machine. Love is the not the sum of a key pad being manipulated. 

Yoga and more yoga, bells and clubs, ropes and money- never fail to engage me. it is very black and white. You get what you give.

Holidays are coming! I love the holidays. The action of being with the folk that love you. So amazing.

and if you don’t know, perfect, bright white smiles is my thing,



I remember holding Roman so close to my chest. I squeezed so tight, it hurt me. I was so careful because he was just an infant. My heart pumped quickly. My only goal was to protect what I loved. For me, love is protection. I always wanted him to feel safe. I always wanted him to know I would stand in front of him and take a bullet. I always wanted him to know he would never be alone.  I was successful. even in a world where love tastes different to so many, he knows what protection means. I am so fuckn grateful.

Freedom means being happy. being set free means living out of fears limitations. I am fearless. I really am.

rick Fox and I hung out this week. yep, that Lakers dude. god was kind to him. I spoke to John Salley too. it isn’t by chance that this happens. I trust the universe.

I shocked myself this week professionally. I am still coming down from that high. 

I found a dollar, I was alone all week but my family keeps reminding me that I am never alone. I was one.

I never understood that, through all of the yoga, meditation, health and stuff. I never really got it. I understand now.  more than ever, I comprehend. it takes a lot for me to surrender. I surrendered.

with all of the anguish i could muster up, with the regret -I gave up. and then, the hush- the silence broke me. I was edited. because of it, I truly felt the power of life.

I went to the movies before the trip, suicide squad was bomb.

I know what I’m going to be for halloween. I love the holidays. I love to feel alive. if you feel like hugging me, show me . I love love.

to fight fire, you smile. to keep freedom, be free. to fight terrorism. live.


and if you don’t know, love is protection,



fall-ing in love

cheers to fall! I had the best summer of my life this year. I did things I never expected to do. I loved myself. I stayed open. I made a good choice.

last week was even better than the entire summer tho!! my smile is breaking my face. I feel like I am floating. my son is thriving, my business is booming, I am healthy. what more is there? the best is now.

everyday I learn more, grow more and feel more. I never really expected to feel more. it’s incredible.

a compliment never felt like this. it’s been years since I felt so little. I mean like a little girl. seriously in love with that feeling.

we raised monies for the UNDERLINE MIA, we raised the vibe. I love collabing with real heroes. is in full effect. I am truly excited for this one. I did a JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE indeed.

I have been hired by three FORTUNE 500 companies, one is global.  I am falling in love daily. what’s not to fall in love with? he called me a masterpiece. I was born again.

I have never been as old as I am right now, but I feel like I am crawling. I spent ten years without going to Europe and now I’ll be there twice in one quarter. we spoke of tokyo.

is this happening? the look of love?  where should I go? no time to think! I feel like I’m out of control. I love it!

in one sentence, I was summed up. I tip my hat off to another human that can interpret my level of speed. so much respect for this!!! in all of my yogic experience, I have practiced these beliefs, missions, guides, esoteric meanings, I am living them now. it’s beautiful.


and if you don’t know, head over heels,